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| *happy sigh* God is so good. | | |
| Ya know, I think I'm going to take some time away from the computer. I'm having trouble in my walk and I feel I am relying on the computer too much. I'm praying I can actually stay away long enough for something to happen. I've said before that I am getting away only to come back a few days later. I'm really aching for some truth in my life. We'll see what happens. Its just really hard to get away because this is usually the only time I get to talk to people. I'm a people person, yet I keep to myself. I enjoy being around people, but I'm not too open about letting people really get to know me. Probably out of fear. | | |
| So I'm hoping to get to rip the closet out of my room. That's pretty much the high point right now. lol.
I signed up for a CPR & First Aid class for the summer.
Pray for my brother, he's got a tooth bothering him pretty bad and doesn't have the money to get it fixed or pulled.
I had an awesome time last night hanging with a friend and playing basketball, video games, and darts. Who knew a Ford F-150 Lightning could be a Chevy Corvette (not an ordinary one, one that is completely been beefed up)??  Well, I do and now, my friend does. Ahahahahahaha, it was great. Don't mess with a Ford baby! This was a much needed great night.
The room still is not done. Just as it starts to get done, I change my mind and do something else. It's great. I'm borderline psychotic/public school teacher. LOL.
I will be meeting with my host teacher for the fall semester sometime next week.
So much to do, so little time. A lot of decisions to make, pray for wisdom and understanding.
In His Peace,
Jeff | | |
| So I asked the question, "What do you people want from me?" yet I realized last night that God was the one I should be asking. So I did. Yesterday was a good day full of cleaning. Not in my room, but other rooms needed it too. lol. So last night, as I was watching some TV, there was a girl that reminded me of someone I once was interested in. Old memories came up and yadda yadda. The thing was, a relationship never happened between us and I thought it was my fault and I have blamed all sorts of other things too. I basically feel guilty because not long after this, she began falling away from God and I feel responsible. So many things I wished I could go back and change. Ever have those days, when you just want to go back and change something? God keeps showing me that by doing this, I am saying that I am the one in control, not him. I'm not in control, God is. Granted, this doesn't give me a free pass to make stupid decisions, but it can help (should help) to give me a peace.
There have been a lot of things from the past that I haven't left there. So many moments I continue to hang onto and I think, in turn, miss out on what God has for me today. Its so hard. I look around at what others have had and have today and it hurts. I didn't grow up in a Christian home. I didn't have godly people supporting me and helping minister and mentor to me everyday. My family still is not where they need to be with God. I know this from my daily interactions with them. *big sigh* Seriously, this hurts more than you can ever know. So there are my thoughts. A little insight to something you would never know unless I told you. I keep the pain locked inside and hide it with a smile.
"Do not pray for easy lives. Pray to be stronger...Do not pray for tasks equal to your powers. Pray for powers equal to your tasks." - Phillips Brooks
"Obedience to God today is the best preparation for tomorrow." -Roy Lessin | | |
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1. You walka pasta da bakery.
2. You walka pasta da candy store.
3. You walka pasta da ice cream shop.
4. You walka pasta da fridge.
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